Well, it’s been a little while since I’ve written a blog post, so there is a bit to catch up on! Most of my journals hop around through time and are mostly just memory-catch-ups. Which has been very useful since I seem to have lost a lot of my long term memories to depression. Going through these journals is really like a time capsule, my writing, my fears, my hopes, what I’m excited for, what I’m grateful for NOW. What I still despise about those times in my life.
I actually caught up to about this same time of year in 2005, Christmas and New Years. This has always been a interesting time of year for me, as a kid it was incredible!! All the Christmas magic you can think of, I experienced as a kid; the presents, the lights, the decorations, the food, the huge family gathering, carolling, golfing Brussels sprouts off the deck because nobody ate them, being sneaked our aunt’s “Special Blend” of alcoholic beverage for the year. We had such good times as kids! Now, I use “kids” relatively, I was a kid until I was about 25 ie. was able to go home and be with my parents for Christmas. Now, it’s just too expensive to fly and/or too dangerous on the roads to drive. It’s a 10 hour drive from Vancouver if everything goes smoothly…… aaaaand it never does so it’s usually about 12 hours on the road.
I don’t get any more depressed than usual because of the holidays, they’re really just another couple days in the year for me now. I didn’t even bring out the decorations for our apartment this year; Sarah was away visiting her granny and I stayed in Vancouver so I could go celebrate my best friend’s birthday in Victoria. This time of year is really just about re-connecting now, it’s gone beyond the gift-giving, and it’s more about the experiences now. I’m also super broke. So a no-gift year anyways.
New Years has certainly changed since I was a “kid,” I don’t always start the New Year feeling like balls anymore! I’ve learned. I took my time, but I learned. This year, we’re looking at karaoke for the ‘Eve. I’ll rock out some Aqua, as they’re doing the ball-drop in New York this year. I have second hand pride for them, they’re so great, I freakin’ love Aqua, Sarah and I saw them this summer at the PNE here in Van, they put on an amazing show. Lene, Soren, and Rene saw our signs: “Rene and Soren, you are Kenough!” and “Lene: the Original Barbie Girl!”
Anywho, ’tis the end of this post, Happy New Year everyone!!
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Mary Maxine 